The proposal is away.
No, i'm not celebrating too soon, but i am celebrating. You see, in composing it, i see much more clearly the real, true possibility for the project. You knew this. About writing proposals. This is how it works.
i continue on in my 4 course load, so simply completing the P is worthy of an LBD and a cocktail, i'd say. And then, it's a vision, this image, of my life as a profess-ah. Sure, i've been a professor, had tenure, gave it up for personal reasons. but so, renewed and revised in my vision, i continue to seek my ideal scenario for living this life.